Sometimes you know there is always this feeling you can’t
shake off. You thought it’s temporary but it ended up it’s the otherwise and
real.
You know clearly there is no way that it will work out at
all but you still want to do something just to see that smile, the look and
look forward to the time being together.
You know clearly nothing will come out from what you have
done but you still do it nevertheless.
You know clearly that all the signs are point away but you
delude yourself thinking probably you’re being too sensitive.
You know clearly it meant nothing but you deceive yourself
that it meant something.
You know clearly you’re being a bother but you still just
want to have that a little attention, albeit for a few seconds.
You know clearly you’re not even same league or not even the
same sports to being with, but you are doing something out of logical sense.
You know clearly you are not and you will be afraid or even
reject the idea, if the opportunity came clear in front of you.
You know clearly that one time that when hands are held for
a short while and the hug, you should be contented.
You know clearly that it won’t happen anymore.
You know clearly that it was the last time.
You know clearly it meant nothing.
But you still would do stupid things just to ensure as much
as possible the person’s life is easier and taken care of and expect absolutely
nothing back. Then you realise only when you’re drunk, the world would then
seems to be slightly better, slightly happier and slightly numbed from the emotions.
