Second

What am I thinking, recently? That particular day I thought the one thing, which was and still is important to me, was finally coming true but the very next day, it wasn’t what I thought, not even close.  Should I do more? Did I think too much?  Did I do something wrong? Those open questions haunt me till today. I want a closure but at the same time I’m afraid of that. What if whatever I thought and assumed was not the truth? Will it be too devastating for me?

Some friends around me occasionally ask me the reason of why do I like to drink. I would just tell them that I like the feeling of getting tipsy, having fun with friends and doing stupid things. Well, I wasn’t lying, I do like those but I left out that whenever I drink, I trying to forget that particular day that was imprinted in my mind for probably the rest of my life.

"I don't even care if I know you

Out of our minds

Sad to leave it all behind

We'll be coming back for you one day"

Will I? Honestly, I have told myself that I become successful in life, I would try again. But I guess chances are real slim.